Tuesday, December 29, 2009

IT'S JUST SILLY, ISN'T IT

So, this past week we gave away $500 to a family that was displaced by a house fire. It was a good feeling. Business has been down because of the holidays and because of a couple really crappy BLIZZARDS! It seems that I am shoveling snow a lot these days.

We will make it this winter, I've determined. Despite having our pretty much suckiest month to date, we still managed to pay all the bills (with the help of mom, as usual) and yeah, we anticipated $70,000 in sales for this year and we have SURPASSED that goal! Our payroll was way over budget, and so was our costs on stuff, but that is being adjusted. And as our sales increase, those percentages will diminish.

The silly I spoke of in the title, was in New Zealand, of course. What else could be more silly than someone on formspring, thinking that I am someone talking to them anonymously and referring to me in the way they did. And then being stupid about it. I mean, wth? If I ever give anything to someone it is out of my heart, not based on anything you do or say. And it is without any expectation of your "friendship" and as if, AS IF I would want any friendship from someone who just consistently makes me feel like crap for nothing I DO! When have I ONCE hurt you dude? NEVER! When have I once LIED about you? NEVER! When have I ONCE held you accountable for your own actions or lies or bull crap? NEVER.

I don't really care. New Zealand is still going to be my vacation destination, and perhaps a place I would consider living someday, despite you! And fortunately, not everyone is like you. Inconsiderate, and full of themselves. Sadly, if you don't grow out of your narcissism, it will become pervasive throughout your whole life. And that would definitely be sad. Some good qualities are really going to be overshadowed by a big pile of shit. It's just silly, isn't it?

*someone sent me a comment asking what my twitter was, its toaonikos =)

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

FIRST SNOWFALL

It's December 8th, and I was up at 4 am shoveling snow today, and salting the sidewalk outside the restaurant. It was nerve wrecking, seeing snow coming down, wondering if we would have any business today. It has been slow, but not completely dead yet. I dread this winter, and I dread the week ahead as we are facing more snow coming down tonight. With or without snow, we have the same bills coming due every month. The only thing that changes with volume is food cost. Obviously, food usage is lower if there are less customers, but the percentages of the other business expenses then tend to rise.

Today is the "first" day of my winter, and I am fully praying that I can make it through the next 4 months or so. And beyond that, I have another 6 or so years to get through the payoff of all the restaurant major loans. I feel like I am in a pestilential prison with a lifelong lock. (sorry about that, old acting class)

Today I pray, tomorrow I pray, the day after that I pray, and I just keep on keeping on. The success or failure of this restaurant has always been based on God's providence alone. And so, I leave with that. And away we go, I need a sled! :-)