Tuesday, July 7, 2009

BANKING!

I would love that word to mean "cha-ching!" But it isn't there yet. I am just about to go back to the town to meet with a bunch of people all day long. Three of those just happen to be bankers for a commercial loan for the property. I have a bit of anxiety about that. It's me presenting what I think will go well, in order to ask them to give me money on the premise that I know what the fuck I am doing, and that I will be able to walk in and make enough to pay all the bills I have.

I would hope that after all this time, I could do that, and I have quite a bit of confidence in myself and my abilities, but at the same time, I am really anxious. If I am wrong, and if I fail, then I have all these bills coming month after month, and I am screwed. So it is really all I can do to just stop stressing about it, and walk in there tomorrow and just do it. I have to say, this is where it is really good for me to have my faith. I know that all the things I have no control over, will just have to work themselves out. And I believe God is ultimately in control if I let Him have that control. It doesn't diminish my responsibility to work hard, it just alleviates a whole lot of stress in the meantime.

Besides that, tomorrow I have the building inspector coming to check the major systems for me. And I have to register the business assumed name. As well, I have to meet with the apartment complex to put down my security and application fee. I was really upset to find out that the apartment I was looking at last week has been taken. I loved that location. It seemed perfect. But I will really look now at this other apartment and then before I put down my security, I am going to look elsewhere if I have to. I am really aggravated that this lady gave that apartment up when I told her I wanted it. She said this lady moved in already, without all the applications and stuff? It takes a good two weeks to get all the paperwork in. So I don't really believe her with all she said on the phone. I dunno.

I'm hoping that I will find a place I feel comfortable with. It isn't forever, but it is going to be the place I call home for a while, until the business gets going.

I went to a store today to look at registers. It was really cool. I feel like a kid in a candy store every time I go there. It is probably the one thing that will make ordering easy or difficult, and therefore, it is like, really important when you are on time constraints to get the food made and dished out. It is for this reason that any cash registers which are more than adding machines are really on the pricey end. Some touch screen point of sale systems are as much as $10-15 thousand dollars each terminal! Fortunately, my little adding machine will not be that high. But it is still an expense. And it sets me apart. My menu board could be cheesy but I chose a nice higher end menu board which cost a grand. So if my register costs 8-9 hundred, I can deal. I was looking at another one which tracks data for customers as well, for deliveries and phone orders, but I am not ready to spend the extra thousand right now. So for now, I will settle with that one. I am completely fine with upgrading later.

It's all the equipment, the small wares, the table stuff, the food, the paper, the everything that I need to get that is all going to cost sooooo much, and I am always afraid that I will run out of money before I open! I can't do that because I need to pay the payroll, the utilities, the insurance, the taxes, and the mortgage. So I am nervous about that. I have one month to get things open and running! And if I have to work from morning to night through the morning, for the next month, I will do it!

I'm so driven right now. I hope this all works. THAT is what I am most anxious about.

I must apologize, over the past couple posts, and probably for the next couple months, I will be writing incoherently because I am up at all kinds of hours, with little to no sleep. So, please bear with me. Love you all!

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