IT'S ONLY A SONG

Truly passionate people come along very seldom. I know, because I think I was cursed with raw passion. I say cursed, because to the unfeeling eye, that line of passion can easily cross over to the "creepy" or "freaky" in an instant. More to do with what other people say about you means so much when it makes all your feelings seem to be a lot of insane thinking. Call me insane. With that passion, does come a lot of really emotional responses or to others they may be seen as immature "reactions." As some of you read in my last blogs, there are times that in your eyes, there is just nothing else you can say but what you feel about something, or someone. And they can react to that in one of two ways: 1) take what you are saying as just a part of you, and your passion, lovable as always because of how you make the other person feel good about themselves, or 2) take what you are saying as a really weird thing to say, because "normal" people don't say those things, or act that way. It's all about the way I express myself. It isn't "normal." I don't see how I look at people on every level as "normal." I don't think my insights are insights that "normal" people have. And I am glad that I am who I am!

I was talking to a friend the other night about music. I mentioned that sometimes music is so powerful to people because it is real! When you listen to a song, the lyrics and the music are so emotionally at where we are, but we won't ever admit to it. I think it has to do with the sensory stimulation of the melody as well as the lyrics. Like, if I were to say something in a letter or in person to someone, or on the phone even, it would come across as "scary" because the amount of time I have known them isn't enough to know them well. But yet one of the number one songs Savage Garden wrote, was so popular and became the song that people often got sick of hearing on the radio, because it was one of their two "hit songs" they ever had. So I give Savage Garden credit for saying something that I couldn't say, because if I did, someone would think I was crazy.

You don't need to know everything about someone to give them a part of you. Obviously, when you give someone some trust, and they break that trust, then you don't give as much, because they can't be trusted with what you gave them. But you have to give of yourself in order to understand what it means to give and to receive. When you see something, don't be afraid of saying, "I really do care about you." Don't be afraid of saying "I love you!" Obviously, there are things about that person you do indeed love. And it shows in how they make you feel. And you want to pursue more, and you want to feel like it is mutual. But from someone who doesn't quite see it the way you do, they may think that you have only known them for a little bit, and it is impossible for you to feel that way. It can be creepy. But why? Why is expressing something so wrong? Why are you afraid of letting someone say what they feel about you? If someone made a song, and you both heard it at a magical moment when you met, you would say... "That can be our song."

Often times, when someone gives of themselves, and finds that the person they cared about screwed them over, they bring that to other relationships. They become JADED! And they can't look past the trust issues from their last relationships. They can only enter into something with a "guarded" perspective. And after a while, after losing trust in more than one person, they don't have the capability to trust anyone unless it is earned. Often, that leads to someone who has no trust for anyone.

BREAK THE CYCLE OF NOT TRUSTING BY TRUSTING MORE! In your next relationship, may I make a suggestion? Give of yourself, as if you just met that person and you want to know them. Give of yourself, as if it didn't cost you a thing. Give of yourself, as if you wanted to have them give of themselves to you. And when you see someone who captures your heart at first sight... or at the moment you see what it is you were always looking for, say it. And pray that they get it.

This is an excerpt of a post a friend of mine had a couple days ago, and my response:



Date: Nov 24, 2008 2:18 AM
Subject: is it possible to be in love with someone you shouldn't be in love with?

Body:
ABSOFUCKINGLUTELY! although, often, circumstances and others will try their hardest to make that as difficult as humanly possible. Then you go on faith.

Unrequited love is a love that you have for someone who doesn't share the same love for you. It is very possible. And sad. But it happens often. And you shouldn't let ANYONE or anything tell you that what you feel or who you care about is worth any less than your heart! Because it is YOUR HEART we are talking about, right?

Or was it mine?

:-)


This song, by Savage Garden, I dedicate to the passionate people I have met most recently, and in the past; those I have given a part of my heart to. And I hope you will take the time to listen to it on a music player while reading its lyrics:



"I Knew I Loved You"



Maybe it's intuition
but some things you just don't question
Like in your eyes, I see my future in an instant
And there it goes,
I think I found my best friend
I know that it might sound
more than a little crazy
but I believe...

I knew I loved you before I met you
I think I dreamed you into life
I knew I loved you before I met you
I have been waiting all my life

There's just no rhyme or reason
Only the sense of completion
And in your eyes, I see
the missing pieces I'm searching for
I think I've found my way home
I know that it might sound
more than a little crazy
but I believe...

I knew I loved you before I met you
I think I dreamed you into life
I knew I loved you before I met you
I have been waiting all my life

A thousand angels dance around you
I am complete now that I've found you

I knew I loved you before I met you
I think I dreamed you into life
I knew I loved you before I met you
I have been waiting all my life

I knew I loved you before I met you
I think I dreamed you into life
I knew I loved you before I met you
I have been waiting all my life

(To Fade)